Artwork by Sebastian Robles using "Deep Forest" by Elizabeth DuPlessis
Mastered by Ralph Maier
I. Enemy
Love me, my enemy, my foe.
I show myself to you
Even though your gaze betrays and corrodes
You see me clearly; me you know
So much so I fear you when we’re alone.
We alone, we alone
I fear you when we’re alone
We alone, we alone
I fear you when we’re alone.
II. Mentor
Lit roads are a dream to me now
Since you hold me in your mocking, devil’s,
cocky, knowing eyes.
You fogged up the wood
With your flattering promise of a throne.
I wish that my heart would beat faster than yours
But it won’t and it shows
Oh in lack of love, oh, it shows.
I would pierce your heart right through
Hear you gasp and watch you lose
Sit you down and know you’re glued
To this old world and its solitude
I would laugh at your blanket competence
Against real love you’d be left with no defence
But my coward’s heart
Cowers in its home.
A fiend holds all the love
When heroes fail to look women in their lovely, judging,
holy, cutting eyes.
You tell me the bed
Would take away my shame and heal my soul.
Who do I believe?
When virtue leads to a trembling spine and a thorn...
Leads to weakness and to a thorn.
I would pierce your heart right through
Hear you gasp and watch you lose
Sit you down and know you’re glued
To this old world and its solitude
I would laugh at your blanket competence
Against real love you’d be left with no defence
But my coward’s heart
Cowers in its home.
You guide my steps toward victory
Like a father.
I follow you without fee
Like a son - but carefully -
For our souls notice naught
‘Til they’re sold.
Now I flee on burning legs
But I’m not free; cause you’re in my bags
I cleaned my clothes, and prayed you’d gone;
But I’m your abode as I carry on.
III. Friend
What now, this a lady?
Asks me, would I maybe
Come alive just for a moment -
Give love a try as an atonement?
I oblige.
What if I could please you?
Would you smile if I do?
Could one night brighten one morning
Till I must fly and break what’s forming?
I can try.
I’ll try.
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IV. God
Warm my blood up, my God.
Make me love;
Make me want a lofty thing.
I’ve forgotten you -
How do you look again?
You smell so far away.
I look to my own enemy
For all the things that come from you:
All your levity, tranquility, always steadily, calm-headedly,
In your steadiness, readiness, decisiveness, and heaviness
Fix my cowardice, I’m passionless
Give me love, give me love, give me love, give me love, make me love!
...while I still search for you,
Lest I stay stuck in my bed
And dream of ending things.
My foe waits for me
And if I’m to flee away,
You are the only place.
I belong to my enemy.
Tell me I’m wrong or judge me doomed.
Show me levity, tranquility, always steadily, calm-headedly,
In your steadiness, readiness, decisiveness, and heaviness
Fix my cowardice, I’m passionless
Give me love, give me love, give me love, give me love, make ME LOVE!
Love,
come - down - here.
I once loved you and called you protector
You made my heart earth and spirit iron
I didn’t want to be son to a spectre
So I stopped deepening now do I yearn
For at least confidence in what I believe
Truth seems lost along with the bliss of certainty
I’m only with you cause everywhere else is
More wrong more dead more broken more vile than this
Nothing here satisfies my ravenousness
I try to make my friends into you no less
So my eyes can see what should be inside of me
Why don’t I see what should be inside of me?
Live or let me leave,
Live.
V. Brother
Love me my brother, my friend.
I show myself to you
Even though who I’ve become is a toad
You say you don’t care about these things
You’re happy to see me
And you’ll love me
No matter what, no matter
You’ll love me no matter what
No matter what, no matter
You’ll love me no matter what.